It's crazy how life sometimes brings you to crossroads with a multitude of options to choose from, but there's just one you'd like to pick, and the stakes are highest there! What would you do? Especially if it involved more than one life (ok, it's life and death, but not literal). There are some things in life which cannot merit a pro vs Con listing. It's simply THERE, a risk to take, a chance to gain from, the danger oif losing, and so on. It's almost like a game of 'Snakes and ladders'. You roll the dice with bated breath and stop breathing from the time the dice leave your hand and till they hit the table\floor. Then what? :-)

I guess it's a bit of fear as well. Someone once said that man will always fear what he does'nt understand ... That's why we'd rather avoid someone we can't "peg" as a certain type, or we fear certain situations which we know or we think we can't handle or control. This, is one of those ... And the next few days are certainly going to be a challenge ... To maintain dignity and sanity, and hoping for a positive outcome! :-) Bated breath and prayer beads in hand!

It's tougher being someone like me I guess. We're habitated to think first, of others, loved ones, doing a 360 degree analysis of the consequences of our decisions, and then thinking of ourselves before taking any kind of decisions. I'm not being boastful but it's just how and who we are ... Not risk takers, preferring the road more often travelled than the one less travelled, and one which offers the least of surprises (pleasant and unpleasant). Trying hard to change that.
'Cause like a close friend said to me today,"You're given just one life. Even in that, if you try and live only for others and not for yourself, what, truly, would you have achieved? In your own eyes?". True, ain't it? So from tomorrow, I'll make my own mistakes, take my own risks and chances, and make the most of any damn opportunity that shows up, like a guest, invited or not.
:-)